A physical, brutal, total nausea, as if my body understood the scope of it before my mind did.
Baby bottles.
The last night.
Miriam’s visit was “to help” with the children because I was exhausted and Trevor had had to go out for a while for something I don’t even remember now without hating myself for not insisting.
The sterilized jars are lined up next to the heater.
The strange smell that I attributed to tiredness.
Emma was breathing fast, so fast that the pastor had to kneel down to see her better and speak to her with a calmness that I don’t know where he got it from.
